hogaayys now for the second post. which prolly no ones gna read agn. WHICH IS GOOOD :DD anws ive been reading the booky jonwong lent me, its called "soul cravings" :D quite an interesting book i would say, but i cant get some of the points. but some points are GOOOOOOOOD. newayyys, i actually haf tym to read today cos i wokeup late && when i finally had someone to go out w, i fell asleep & its prolly too late to go shopppp. YEH, and some other reasons luhhhhhh. which makes me wonder whether this is even RIGHT.
people have changed, things are different. they have moved on, and i want to too.
LOVE. (thats why i "HIGHLIGHTED" && "BACKSPACED.") though, i think i'll have a lonely christmas, but its only for the best.
CHAO, ten toi luh ra-chen! :DD (HELLO, my name is rachel! :DD)
after what seems like eternity, im gna start blogging agn! (: biggest reason being that i haf too many random tots && i cant find an outlet to dispose of them. prolly wonte be getting any / much readers, but oohwell, audience of ONE, yes? to start off my random train of tots, i'll quote someth from jeres blog,
"This is reality, accept it. we often cry 'they do not understand me' when we hear things that people say about us. but maybe, no wait, not maybe, Without a doubt, their opinions don't mean a thing. As long as you're able to be satisfied with who you are, no one else's opinion would bother you. hahaha, everything conflicts. everything isn't what it appears to be. almost everything."
hee, while reading that, i was like nodding profusely to it in my head. sometyms i get so bothered by what others say / how they feel about me that i never haf a chance to be HAPPYYY. well, i guess thats one of my greatest struggles that i haf to overcome. i often find myself debating btw that && about the truth of things. like,"why, why cant they just see past whats happening on the surface? why do they judge base on what they see?" so anws, it just brings me back to few things o1. audience of one o2. He'll judge (which is same as previous) o3. && maybee its just pride? sigh, yeh so.. Father Lord, i just want to humble myself before you && commit my ALL to you. i pray that when it gets difficult trying not to care bout what others say or think, i will be able to just look to you & remember your word. its tyms like these which draws me closer to you, so as much as i want a good & happy life, i thankyou for tough tyms & moments where i get verh annoyed. in Jesus' name i pray, AMEN! :D
SECOND RANDOM POINT. SIXTEEN DAYS TO ONE YEAR BABYLOVE ♥
tym really flies, i cant believe its been a year! :D hi baby, you prolly wonte be reading this (unless i ask you to, which i prolly will, hahahaha), but i just wana say, "I LOVE YOU! I LOVE US!" ♥ hee "i love us" is from 5oo days of summer which i went ahead to watch w/o you! xD sorry dear, i'll find us a better love muvee to watch at your place! && this tym we can haf popcorn, yay! ^^ AND, i do hope youre feeling better! *the WARMEST hug everrr!* sigh, anws im sorry for owaes getting angry when youre a woodblock, you need encouragement instead of the cold shoulder, yes? *positive vibes.* thanks for saving me from killer ants, hehhh (: youre my SUPERCAMEL!
hmm what uncanny. teehee, so cute luh! xDD
THIRD RANDOM POINT. i am verh sleepy but i want to finish the post ):
FOURTH RANDOM POINT. i want a smart phone!
FIFTH RANDOM POINT. hunger pangs ): thanks weiliang for the macs offer too! super sweet (:
SIXTH RANDOM POINT. i love my friends. i miss my friends. && i feel like i haf no friends suddenly ):
i miss BIRD & her CRANKY CRAZEE MOMENTS. i miss JOEY & her BOOBHUGS. i miss SHALOM & her CONTAGEOUS LAUGHTER. i miss DARYL & his AWESOME-NESS. ha ha. i miss LIWEN & her SWEETNESS mixed w bits of BIMBONESS. i miss SUIS & her MADNESS w much AIRY-NESS. i miss DANYAN & his verh verh GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR. i miss JERE & his "LET-PEOPLE-FEEL-NOT-AWKWARD-ARND-HIM" POWER. i miss KAREN & her CAREBEAR-NESS. i miss VYN & her "PICKUP" SKILLS. i miss SIEW & her CUTE LAMENESS. i miss SHAN & her SIAOOOOOO-NESS. i miss SIN & her SWEET HEART. i miss many many many. i miss JOH-EY tooooo ):
SEVENTH RANDOM POINT. im listening to joheys viet recordings ^^ cos i miss him too much && he isnt picking up the phone! ): the recordings are HILARIOUS, by the way. heh heh.
EIGHTH RANDOM POINT. super looking forward to tmr! soak & girlstalk w BIRDY & JOEY! yayyyyy! :D
theres owaes that one person that will owaes haf your heart, you never see it coming cos youre blinded from the start, know that youre that one for me is clear for everyone to see
he never loved her, more than life itself. maybee my has never left him
GREETINGS EARTH. im having a bad *coff coff coff.* && i haf no woice anymoreeeee ): ): ): NOGOOD, NOGOOD AT ALL! anws friday & today have been super eventful days :D )': :D )': if you can make those out, theyre superdee har pee faces & teary eyed faces! friday johey got his results & we decided to go celebrate! :D i passed my chem test too! :D i had ingrown nails, superpainful ): i got scammed by the bookshop (not bookshop auntie, just bookshop) bot a pair of nailclippers that cannot even cut paper! ): anws went to bugis, & Joh bot jeans from topshop :D :D :D now his legs look abit like OngWeiWei xD had quite a good time shopping :D bot a pair of slipons & two watches :DD hokays fast forward, johs phone got stolen )': && i called a billion times, then i think the guy accidentally picked up, joh wasnt w me, so i was like.. LOST prayed & called Liwen <3 to pray too but yeh, we know the fones gone forever ): ): && when joh got back, i started crying, like ALOT ALOT. for like half an hour or someth, ): the people prolly tot he bullied me or someth anws went home feeling O.o puffy eyed, last thing ): one of the watches shattered ): ): hokays, shall not blog bout today, discreeeeeeeet <3 Daddie, i pray that johs hamstring pull gets a whole lot better! soon soon soon! :D AMEN.
Oh F manyyyyyyy. heeheehaahaa, off to physics! i love liwen, dandaneggyegg, lomlom && even birdbird! & joyjoyhahahahaa & chellechelle! OH & seeyouying & scallopdear! not that i actually talk to them, HAHAHAH. ohohoh && lauyima! HIHIHI! :DDDDDD && mymummie who pms alot, JUST LIKE ME :D & daddie who bot me AIRFILTER (like what the dots!?) cos i got signus or however you spell that, also caught a shiny green big beetle saying its my new pet! :D but of cos i cant forget my wormylizard baby. gross yet caught my attention & attracted my <3 heehees, its just a worm-like lizard (: i know i sound mad, but oohwells, i hate physickkkks ): ): ):
shut up rae, i hate you! whoooooo, no i donte want to go church tmr. im not trying to prove you guys right, that another failed relationship is gna make me run from church. maybee i just donte feel like im part of the girls anymore, & maybee... thats how she feels too
cos i know, YOU WOULDNT CALL BACK && she said to herself: "we're not breaking up. we'll just let our love fade." too many empty promises, lesbian activities.. they just shouldnt haf started.
YUMMY YOH YUMMY YUMMY YOH. donte know why im still awake at this hour. trying to go against my stand of not having the need for a twenty fifth hour? my brain is so active, it feels like its having a jogathon of its own. maybee im just waiting, like waiting for someth to happen. need instructions, like so that i'll know i haf to go to bed. hokays i sound dam weird, anws JOEYLAUXINYI, IF YOU READ THIS. THIS IS A SIGN THAT YOU SHOULD RETURN TO SINGAPORE NOW. HAHAHAH, kidding. but i wish you would & you could now luh. or.. *whispers.* i donte wana go to cell anymore! ): alrightohz horseys, off to bed! night nights!
I TALKED TO HANSUM TONIGHT.` haahaaheeheehaahaahooo. hokays if he knows i call him that, he'll freak.
*waves & hit face.* donte want luhhh, told you im not a star trek fan oreadey dey dey! read & reply me, haf fun huhs! im outside studying, teehees. someone say you verh scary, HOHOHO. i just posted then you text me oreadie, NOGOOD!
i miss church service ): ): ):
literally & figuratively.
p&w particularly, but not so much of how i feel when im there
i spent four hours attempting eight maths qns.
GREAT JOB RAE, GREAT JOB.
plus this is w the help of maths pro,
who is currently down w fluuey flu.
flu bugs shoo! esp the pork ones.
sighs, i wouldnt mind spending seven days in chalet :D
hokays, life is gay.
made promises w Him,
&& this time im not gna break them man.
i think chain mails are dumb, & ive seen this quite a number of times, but when i saw this today, it felt like it had a different feeling to it (:
when a girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind when a girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply when a girl looks at u with eyes full of questions .. she is wondering how long you will be around when a girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine when a girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying when a girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever when a girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered when a girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it when a girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back, when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. who holds your hand in front of his friends. who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!!
im officially declaring my skuweek unofficially OVER! :D been spammed w pain, like seriously. mens cramps are nuts. HAHAHAH, gna go to bed soon. but i decided i should account for my week at least! :D yeh im accountable to myself, heeee. short three days, did things i wouldnt haf wanted to do. did things i prolly shouldnt haf, did things that made me think so so much & so so deeply. teehees, theyre not as bad as they sound luh! first thing is go to sku, second is sleep at seven thirty ytd, && third is read another of Karen Kingsbury bookies! <3 her books to bits, like when i haf books like these, i get so absorbed, i get stuck to them & not want to do anyth else. wonte feel like studying,watching teevee && even text or answer my phone! i'll read till my eyes cannot take it anymore, go to bed, wake && start reading agn. && even after i finish the book, my mind will still be constantly filled w images of the events & happenings, of the characters & emotions (: someth in her book owaes never fail to bring me to tears. & i know what that is :D heehees, Him. w Him brings love, & w love brings forgiveness. He also brings hope, comfort && everyth else else elseeeeee *echo echo.* haas, hokays abit sleepy oreadie, not sure where im heading. but yeh, her books are PUN TAH STEEK! thats DanYans "fantastic" ;D mms, anws had a eventful day! pain har pee tired sad QUIET. cramps was bad, made me haf no choice but to take panadol which im allergic to ): met sweet lil' boi after what seemed like eternity (: thou today was weird & made me feel like we're VERH VERH VERH FAR APART, im still (: we at least got to see each other, plus the many happyfood he got for me! all the WHITE choc-ey stuff! kinder joy, kinder bueno white && subway white chip! wheeeeee` HAR PEEE HAR PEEEE, thou ____ <-------- (whoever luh, cant think of the right word!) prolly know these will only bring me temporary joy. AH WELLLLLL. teehees, have a sudden urge to study lit agn! miss chuapigpig! realised she laughs quite as much as dear siewsiew too! :D OMG MY DAD IS FRIGGIN IRRITATING, FEEL LIKE SLAMMING THE WALLS OF THE HOUSE DOWN OKAYS VERH ANNOYED I WANT TO GO TO BED NOW GOODNIGHT COMPUTER I LOVE OBAMA <3 <3 <3
RACHEL O. michelle go away luh, hes mine! aww so cutezxzxzxxzxzx. goo goo gaa gaa.
TARTS MY BOREHHHHH! HAHAHAHA, this is siewshansin & me lovelove! <3 go google the original lyrics & like cross ref, super omgosh funny! ever since i watched this, i kept having the craving for tarts. like seriously, everydayyyyy :D ate two of them today! wheeeeee *flies to heaven!* the song never fails to make me har pee, plus it kinda gives me the satisfaction from actually eating the tarts. *drools at the tot agn.* anws this week has been good! in the sense that ive been relatively har pee in sku, which means my skumates haf been <3 heeheehees, plus i dint go to sku on tuesday. dinte go for cca on wednesday. SICK OOHKAYS. which reduces the amout of "skutime" which sometimes are really kinda draining & dreaded. tuesday was a har pee har pee day! :D went to dinner w someone special, its been forever since we've actually went out tgt, like just the two of us. talked nonstop, sweetsweet (: anws its the weekends! YAYS! busybusy! i should start on my scheduled work timetable soon! then maybee i can go june retreat! :D alrightohs, buhbyes humans! OH WAIT, if youre bored, go to youtube & find bot fly in humans vids, super eww! spent super long gg tru most of them & related vids, HAHAHAHA, verh cool & gives the ghost muvees goosebumps feeling! xD
i cant help it, i know i aint preventing my wings from growing neither am i stopping myself from learning to fly so for this i am to blame too. but what if you were me? disappointments one after another, you please me & the next moment youre disappointing me agn am i to blame for not being understanding? i know that i haf the ability to "cover" all these close an eye & be forgiving, but this aint the first time & this is a rough patch. w that big factor drawing, whats stopping me? NOTH. its just a matter of taking that step, to be bold & say no. && perhaps i wonte haf to go tru all these nonsense & what not. i haf no idea whats this, you tell me ___________, but what you show me does not really reflect anyth you say.
TELL THEM THE TRUTH. why does it seem like youre the saint & im the guilty one?
i haf no bunny idea why im still up at this hour ): hokayz, maybee i do haf! xD COUNTER LOVE FOR COLDNESS. haa haa hee hee haa haa ho! *curses the If You Seek Amy song.* && i just spent two hours reading someones blog. *gives a What The Dots face.* i haf no idea why i did that either can. BUT BUT BUT, yays ^^ i haf just sortaf psycho-ed myself to not like some HANSUM guy. not like in the like sense, but like as in think he verh "teeheehees, wheeee." & he reeeeeally looks like Kris LUH LUH LUH!
cos i was switching between windows, comparing him w krisy, && i think he look superrr same same! IN FACT, i think they look identical! BUT HANSUM, NO HANSUM, NO MATTER. he likes to swear using God's name,
which kinda turns me off. but hes sweet & all luh. awkayz, i seriously haf no idea what im talking about / why im writing this post oreadiez! BUT, PRAYER MEETING WAS AWESOME! :D :D :D i wana be like Shufen & Rachel! my maturity level is prolly 1o thousand feet below theirs! NO GOOD! OHOHOH, && i wana marry someone like David! <3 <3 <3 heeheehees, i think i haf been saying that since.. secondary two!? haas, so i haf to grow too! mentally, spiritually, && phee see kally (thats for myself! xD) anws, [random inserts] i love my mummie. && im addicted to the songs Im Yours by Jason Mraz && How Six Songs Collide! <3 which is like a remix of six songs! super niceeeeee! anws, my bloggies so lifeless w/o peektures! but my bloggie suddenly cant upload peektures, donte know why. IWWITATINGZXZXXZ. *whine whine whine.*
whoohoo free free freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! *jumps in the air!* teehees, like what bird & J told me, no matter what praise Him! xD prolly screwed up my papers, but i thank Him cos tru this, ive come to realise how blessed i am. to be able to stardee, the uber sweet & supporting friends i haf, esp kaien isaiah matz dandan liwen birdie & jooooooh! <3 love them to bits bits bits!
& i haf to buck up oreadiez, The Time Has Come! wheeeee` anws [random inserts] the song Mercy by Parachute Band is A-W-E-S-O-M-E!
many many love!
heeheehees, OH OH OH. i also miss shan & siew alot ): esp shan cos we donte seem to talk much anymore ): donte know if she'll ever see this, but SHAAAAAAAN I MISS YOU! dear girl, i donte know what has happened which caused things to be this way, maybee studies, or maybee youve heard someth from someone agn. SIGHS, wells, hope things will be fine <3
The Madness Of King Jesus` <3 grumpy is the cutest stuffed toy alive!
"God, i pray that u will grant rachel wisom, let her be able to understand her work and also enable her to be able to rmb what she has study, take away any form of anxiety from her an dlet her depend on u. In the name of jesus i pray, Amen"
teehees, so sweet rights (: i thank Him for giving me such friends.
Your mercy saved me, Your mercy made me whole (: ever cried during a praise song? i haf, a few times. back when i was in Chancery, well i figured there can only be two reasons. ONE being the uber overwhelming presence of God TWO heartbrokeness, the feeling of walking on shattered glass but i realised coming to Him / crying to Him instantly unties that dead knot in your heart! LIBERATED! FILLED W HIS JOY!
The Madness Of King Jesus <3 may Your will be done. i commit myself to you once agn, haf surrendered all, & Lord now i just need you to lead me. Love it leads me, take my pain, take my shame, && fill me once agn w the Joy that none but You possess. amen.
heeheehees, cheeken is officially knocked out! xD im dead beat too, had training today, && friendly match w AJ tmr. like what zee dots can!? ahahs, aww wells. God is good (: past two weeks, super unstable emotionally. but thank God for peepor like kaien <3 anws, saturday was a turning point, HAR PEE HAR PEE DAY! liwen & dan came to cvd in the morn, quite cute, was showing them to my friends (: they left quite early, so i had the company of ray & kaien before joh came (: kaien was really sweet (: he secretly got me the woodenbox i wanted, super cute luh. the box has pictures of cupids & hearts <3 J came at bout one thirty w ribena! like, you know, the drink. HAHAH, verh cute. had a mu tou raining sweat tagging behind me xD we nua-ed at the pooltable for verhhhhhhhh looooooong, cos i couldnt leave sku ): but in the end we left, right before it rained. ran for the bus, super funny & cute! we went to vivo for dinner & shoppang` J was super sweet, treated me to ThaiExpress! *bunnydances.* super uber shiooook can!? i had tomyum crayfeesh, one of the bestest meal we've had tgt. thankyou my Camel! <3 (FILTERING BORING, YOU DONTE HAF TO KNOW DETAILS.) debated bout getting the souk or whatever pumps, which i dint get in the end. && J got me a black Lonsdale gym bag! wheeeeeeee <3 THANKYOU x 2612o8 times! kaykay, like ms ong would say "END OF STOLE-REEEE!"
anws, been doing tag & praying alot more, trying to jog uphill like mr ocx would illustrate it (:
YOUR BIGGIE DUMMIE RULE NUMBER ONE - YOURE OLD ENUFF TO MAKE DECISIONS BY YOURSELF. *whines.* but but but, what if what if.. i got morested by some teekoh uncle? ): late, danger, no checks, no noth. aww wells, yaysy. today has been alot better than the rest of the week that ive completed; like homework, dumb chore ): pe was funny (: sku ended rather early (: shopped for many hours (: bought two dresssys (: great company (: kaien just told me a real cool secret (: aww so sweet, i want the stem! teeheehees.
this is kaien & his twinnie, super cute rightzxzxxz. bet hes gna kill me for this! heeheehawhaws, aww wells! BE NICE KAYYYY. skus been mad, && i should start working hard alr! feel quite behind my skumates ): im not dumb ):
my life is UP, DOWN, UP, DOWN, UP, DOWN = FULL OF UPS & DOWNS! the past two days fluctuations were just disgusting, but it was more of normal & falling deep deeep down into slimy icky unhappiness ): uhhs wells, at least "elmos song" made me smile (: i just realised im super uber near my exams && i donte even have any idea what are the topics tested ): i shall stop praying prayers that test my limits ): & :D officially mia-ed for five & the half hours ): man, life is bad. this is bad ):
When kissing, cortisol levels drop for both sexes, meaning that kissing does in fact reduce stress.
alrightohs` humans should kiss more when theyre upset HAHAHA, what nonsense! anws skus been uber busy, have tons of overoverdued photos! many funny shots of shan siew & joh :D verh cute, i swear. heehees, the dumb poot com cant upload any photos, duno why. studied in sku today, quite productive! have been gg out everyday w :D for the past five days, time to studeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! went back home after a tinywhile of squash which just made me think alot, & anws i got quite upset. went back w ShannyLove! TANHUISHAN MY CLASSMATE. teehees, humans are just freaky. but ive got you all, hope you all will never do those stuffs to me. I LOVE YOU GUYS <3
Emotional Higggghhhhh` <3 J is for JOY. thankyou for everyth youve done, & i can see that youre trying (:
sku has been uber exhausting. & i mean really really. collapsed once i got home like a buhgillion times in a week! = buhgilion mounts of homework not done! haven been updating, got super lots of cute & funny photos to upload! :D anws, TGIF, like seriously. though today hasnt exactly been, uhhs nice, at least the weekends are here! wheee :D monday please donte come so soon! donte like the superlots of physical training ): monday - pe & squash wednesday - pt & squash friday - pe verh gross right ): aww wells, kinda in a bad mood. its like some snowball effect or someth, once i get upset w someth, every other minor thing affect me like !@#$%
teehee, the whole event was quite a success, i would say. was expecting things to be quite!@#$%? cos i was uber zombified, && i tot DanFund & me would be like verh awkward & stuffs, haas! but the evening was sweet luh, DanFung & i dueted "Barneys Song" :D the "i love you, you love me" one, verh funny & cute! & came runner up for best dressed :D the soup & main course was quite okay, but dessert was to die fooooor. went home a sleepy but HAR PEE GIRL :D
got to stay home today! kinda happy that im sick, skus a total killer! xD man, realised ive got alot to learn. have to stop throwing tantrums at J! im sorreeeeeeeeeeeeeee! xD awkayz, off to attempt to study!
today was a diahorrea / tummy ouchie ache pain day! but im a happygirl (: love Sin Shan Siew, Birdie Jo Sha, plus naggy mummie & daddie! && of cos D & J (:
AWW SHUCKS! !@#$%? awkayz, i cant help but feel sad or, disappointed rather. tot that it was gna happen anws, so im not gna make a big humu humu bout it or anyth. maybee i'll go burry myself in work or someth, you know, MSIPACSE (: kinda miss those days when its normal to always feel like that. maybee its time to grow up & stop getting upset over such small matters, or perhaps its actually okay to feel like that, but portraying my emotions, & channeling it the right way is growing up. i know im always not, HAHAHA. i cant always have it my way, unlike BurgerKing. WHAT THE DOTS. i know i sound pmsey & all, OH GEEZ. prayer makes me cry bad, so ive decided not to pray. i mean i know, what a lame reason huhh.
IVE MADE UP MY MIND TO GROW UP, NOW I JUST HAVE TO COVINCE MY HEART.
♥ RAE IS A HAPPYGIRL (: ahahs, thats prolly someth i will scribble on my work. yeh, & in that handwriting, italic & all w the heart & smiley too! having a sudden missing for someone now, but lalala, forget it. everyths gone w the wind, just move along girl. had a super long day in sku, but yay! tomorrows fridayyyyyy! HARP PEEEEEE` *flings arms into the air.* EGGCITED!
<333 NANA & GAMS` LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. though you are being weird.
so heres the story! i wanted to get her a strawberry landyard few days back, cos when we went shopping last week she told me she kinda liked it, but jo told me she has alr. so i was like thinking crap, what else did she say was cute. && guess what, i couldnt remember anyth! ): then then today she suprised me w the landyard that i wanted! OMG dam sweet can! :D && she bought pumps for me too! from london! so loved cannnnn! i love love love you dearie! thankyou for always being so soooooo supportive! teehee, sometimes even the stuff you shouldnt be supportive of! & for that, i thank Him even more for you! && i pray that you'll get married to some super sweet guy, & tgt you guys will be whooooo! HAHAH, he quite sweet luh horrrrrrrrr xD
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my dad (notice i dint call him daddie) is making us all frigging annoyed. for what, ask someone to come & iron his clothes, so she can earn money. SHE IRONS FRIGGING SLOW PLEASE. she prolly came from snail land, i see her look at the iron, i feel like !@#$%-ing her luh! && guess what, shes gna stay here till eight. HORRAYYYY, PRAISE THE LORDDDDDDD. TOTAL PRIVACY MANNN.
irritating piece of shiatz, i know i should stop being so pmsey & all. yeh, but maybee he can be wiser & not bring so much disharmony into the family. & w all the being all so generous to others, yet being so frigging calculative & stingy w me, I SEE THE LOVE DAD, I REALLY DO.
i know i look pretty hilarious in the second photo! so if it made you laugh / smile / HUUUR! yay! :D
i donte know what to make of this anymore, it isnt anyones fault. & the frigging time of the month isnt to blame either, the constant switching between ups & downs. where is the love? that perfect love that none of us possess, but Him. im not anywhere close to that ive realised. i guess im really not what you consider be complete, so i get upset over things rather easily. but to let my hopes soar high in the sky & then shoot it down. how do you expect me to react? i know you always try your best to make me happy & i want you to know i see it, i sense it & i appreciate it, alot. youre not him, & i should stop comparing you to him. cos hes him & youre you. two different individuals who are almost complete opposites of each other. & though theres a part of me that half expect every living male species to behave like him, i know its not possible. & that isnt being fair to you at all.
HELLOS EARTH! im backie home after my lunchie at macs at amk! ahahs, next time when i have money I'LL EAT A BURGER :D my morning started real terrible w funny emotions & a text which made me uber ): like uber uber uber ttm kinda uber ): HAHAH, but in the end everyth turned out (okay i shall change topic cos im stuck at this sentence for more than 1o minutes alr!) i have a sudden urge to go to the beach! SAND TOE SAAAAA PLEASE! oooh anws im taking care of grumpybear! verh cute! now i have four carebears at home! super cute cos they all different size! joh says the lil` one looks like a brat! xD sounds like someone that i mentioned somewhere in the last five sentences ayeee.
ytd was happy funny sleeeeeeeeepy day! i had LJS breakkie w :D super nice the cheeken toast! wheeee, cos sku started late by an hour. my sku verh kuku one, release super late! but we did calligraphy, so fun! teehee then i went to meet birdie & jo, who say she verh on time one. cheeeken late for one hour! ): && i met / saw super many people luhhh. eric lgg, plynn, elieen, nash, joey, shijia, cherie, changzhong && like another 3 or four peepor from sku! :D me & bird were uber nua luh, cos super tired from the whole week of sku. YOGURT GRAPE BUBBLE TEA VERH NICE! :D im craving for it now! whoooo. we dabao-ed food from orchard to esplanade! we were dam high on the grass luh! i kept pouncing on jo, then she say i verh p*rn* ): aww wells, we had fun! & they had fun ATTEMPTING to catch me unprepared, omg so failure, so funny! :D went to lookie for shoes, cos jo wanted to get some. i fell in love w three, but i had no money no money! ): OH OH OH, i bought a bag! verh happeeeeeeeeeeee! TEEHEE :D awkayz, i suddenly have cramps agn.
ahahs i just read JoelTans & his um um um, friends blog :D super encouraged by their love for God, esp his friend (better not mention her name aye, not verh polite uhhs.) yeh, so initially we (me & jo) were just having a super random conversation bout sku & stuff, till i found out his bloggie! i mean we're all seventeen years old, & i believe if they can be that matured. WE ALL CAN TOO! teehee, of cos im talking bout myself luh! should spend more time soaking in His word less time momo-ing cos of HAHAHA reasons! :D yehh, i was rather upset when i got home, was sulking & whining to my mummie while i rested on the toilet bowl,
but reading his & her blog made me :D :D :D someth which i think has been said over & over agn, emphasized, but maybee we should be reminded
"What is love really? Is it abt fulfilling your own desires, is it about experiencing the happy feeling when you get loved? No. i feel that these are just the world's viewpoint, they are build on selfishness. I mean how can someone hold on to another person now when he/she is not prepared for marriage or commited towards it now? It is unfair and selfish, love just becomes a process of sastifying your emotional or physical needs of being loved. Love is like a tool for your needs.
So what is true love? True love is being self-controlled, patience and even words having unsaid words.- this is God's love. True love is not passionate words whispered. True love waits, it is about laying down our desires and do what is the best for the other person's interest."
ROMANS TWELVE IS STILL EVER SO COOOOOOOOL` TODDLES LOVE! ♥
during YouthCamp! teehee, personally i think this is a super cute photo! :D
orangeeeeeeeeeeee` :D one of the nice restuarants near our hotel!
i have real lousy aiming! = MISS! ):
whoo, prayers move mountains! :D before sunday service!
daryl the uber big sotong wore the cambo tee the wrong side! :D
<333 PHO` is missed! ahahs.
the simplicity of life, oh the joy :D
rae-derella: "i wana go to the ball too!" ):
teehee, she verh naughty! she peeped while i prayed for her! :D
super cold mornings! ):
:D :D :D :D :D
quiet time w the many icky kakas! ):
the love! :D the kids there is really wow luh!
we're SAME SAME, BUT DIFFERENT! :D
at kiwi restaurant! wheee, the food is omg whoo! :D
history of cambodia! ): (: quite enlightening & heartbreaking uhhs.
hair w lice! ): OHNO!
yay, love you guys to bits! each & every bit of you guys. & every single singular person! anws its been more than a month since the trip, kinda regretting how i dint blog bout it when everyth was still fresh in my head. now i can only remember the funnny no link bits! ): many stuffs have happened. though i donte know good or bad cos theres always a flip side to the coin ): what im pretty sure is.. SKU IS A KILLER! never ending homework tutorials things to do && no beauty sleep! the only thingees i look forward to in sku is.. siew shan sin! breaktime! end of sku! :D :D :D wheeee` happeeeee for like awhile cos reach home must chiong work agn! DANG! then finish alr, i get to sleep worrying that i wonte have enuff sleep! wake up && mannnn. the sad cycle! ): aww wells, guess Hes still there. & always will be. just that some stuffs are sooooo arghs. i wana kuku the cheeken nehneh pie!
this. is. my. timetable. AND. I. SO. HATE. SKU. siao. one. catch. me. for. my. curry. pok. hair. today must have been one of the worstest worse first day of sku ever! i got caught for my hair cos it was too FUN-TASK-TICK! my phone got confiscated cos i was caught msging YanMama in class! my super loved bunny clip dropped into the toilet bowl & got flushed away! ): MY. DAY. SUCKED. ooh & tomorrow my teachers gna check OUR skirts & MY hair. omg, so much for the prayer this morning! i prayed that i can start my sku year w alot of joy, peace, PATIENCE, NO ANGER, NO HATRED & stuff like that. aww wells, its my test! romans twelve, ahahs! :D & like whyyousokaypoh said "let it be a day where i can remember & cherish happier days!" like THAT DAY :D wheeeeeee`
ManaDear did this for me! so sweet rightz! :D <333 Mana & her crappus.
double the pleasure said: my maid was asking me what veggy i want to eat for dinner double the pleasure said: i also dk how to choose -SUPERRAE ♥; said: kang kong! double the pleasure says: ya but then right, if you eat alot, next time your legs will be weak double the pleasure says: and my sister cannot eat hot double the pleasure says: now you see, damn hard to choose -SUPERRAE ♥; says: oooh -SUPERRAE ♥; says: uhhs -SUPERRAE ♥; says: the xiao bai cai ;D -SUPERRAE ♥; says: w the oyster sauce one double the pleasure says: haha you think what, restaurant ar! double the pleasure says: haha -SUPERRAE ♥; says: why cannot! -SUPERRAE ♥; says: ): -SUPERRAE ♥; says: why you scold me!
"double the pleasure says: no i never scold you, i'm saying to the computer double the pleasure says: idk why they go and show you double the pleasure says: damn the computer"
me & jos hair are supposed to look stoopid, so if they do, yay! :D
currently listening to "Desert Song" :D sweeeeeeeeeet. i love the bridge, think its really powerful. so anws, today is a funny day. cos usually on saturdays i would be out, & till late. plus skus gna start in like a days time, but whatever.
im still alive = God is nice :D
got home from roches place feeling rather.. down? cos im not gg to the wedding tonight, but i shall be sensible & not kuku so much bout it. && since im home alone while everyones at the lovey dovey place, w/o me (wahnehh kukupops ley, okay sheesh rachelwong!) i shall be lovey dovey w myself, the internet & Him ♥ if i have dee cee pline, which i highly doubt i have. but i should at least for the sake that tmrs sunday, which is GodDay (ooh phoo, im talking crap, made that up myself) so yeh, i should get ready my heart at least huhs. anws im such a stalker, like _____ & her mummie! kidding kay! :D i read peoples blog alooooot. i read at least 15 blogs in the past two hours :D ANDDDDDD, i completed someones entire blog, like the archive & everyth. wheeeeeee` teehee, so cute luh. i mean humans in general. i think christine is so cute. & natty also. YOU ALL DONTE SCANDAL UHHHS. *wags finger.* im only saying cos theyre both rather quiet, but theyre so cute! like cute as individuals. not tgt okay! but maybee tgt also quite cute luh! :D *smiles cheekily.* enuff of that, i must tell you someth freaky that happened last night while i was sleeping! eeks, super funny also luh. so anws i was sleeping w jo in the living room cos we were too lazy to move from the teevee. & in the middle of the night i got awoken by someone shouting! like reeeeeally shouting kinda shouting "AHHH AHH AHHHH, TAKE PHOTO W MEEEEE!? DARYL OKAY?"
guess who. omg, Jo is friggin scary luhhhh! & it did not happen only once can! just that i was too sleepy to remember what else she said, but dohhhh, who sleepscreams one luh! ):< *pouts.* i donte want monday to come, yet i want monday to come. like ive once told i cant remember who, i think LynnBallBall. i want sku to start so i'll get caught up in the boring tedious routined skulife agn, where the days fly by like cheekenwings! aww wells, i think im gna sleep! some kukupop say will text me also never hor ):< nehneh, donte give you my number on escalator alr! *anger.*
feeling abnormally upset. saw someth i prolly shouldnt have seen, yellow in colour. noth bad though, so bunny donte angry. sigh, duno why its affecting me so much, but im supposed to be a happy princess aye :D rae cheeruppies! lookie at the two photos in this post, smile, pray & go to bed!
maybee like you, i might wake becoming a happy angel` ♥
i feel like jeres post. the stress one. i mean its like a stress attack or someth! ):
*sobs.* skus gna start, means i will have revert to my try-&-mug-just-to-pass life, & i wonte get to spend time w them ): && i will miss stuffs i do now. & i have still another 9o maths qns or so to do? sighhhhhh, kukupops are being annoying. worried bout him & him. & also bout her & her. SOLUTION PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8qGZ6vSWvI ahahs there! solution on YouTube!
this is jo, glamglam coooooow` ;D OH MY CURRENT WALLPAPER TOO! teehee, oh the horror!
she was looking at mummie, but this was the only shot i managed to capture w her! ):
super uber cute right! ;D she prolly a jap / mixed.
aww, sho cutez ;D
I LOVE THEM TO BITS ♥ love jojohbirdie. today was uber fun! even though we were just walking around, torturing our backs & feet! OH OH OH, we saw jere && i screamed FRIGGIN' LOUD! yes, reeeeeeally loud! && then, we saw cheryl! ;D joh said luckily we saw her on the streets or the people who have gone deaf! verh exciting muhs. i saw quite a number of people today. including a kukupop. wahlau i feel like buttshooting him / her luh! ask him / her to stop being so paranoid can! what the dots. jo made me uber high luh, esp at subway! her b.hugs & her ungramz face! ;D thats why i screamed so loud when i saw jere! joh & birdie were uber calm luh, like mu tou lidat. OH, joh you still haf me & birdies cookies! AHAHS. anws the photo above is supposed to be funny! to us at least.
jo makes me high to the maxest of max. bird make me think tots deeper than the oceans. joh makes me smile right from the bottom of my heart.
currently talking to two people appearing offline. was feeeling uber vexed & upset bout some stuff, thank God laogong suddenly talked to me & said someth which made me (:
OH & smurfey! guess what! i got your christmas card at last! wheeeeee, thankyou verh much! ;D
ive got to start doing my 1o2 maths qnsalr! eeks. so if you peeps see me floating around on facebook or whatever, KILL ME PLEASE! ;D ahahs, I ♥ MuTouRen!
TATA` no goodbyes. dearies remember to do the bible reading commitment kay!
this is YanMama! & i can never ever thank him enuff. hes simply awesome luh, a real father to many. i feel that hes like a real shepard, (just like how the bible illustrates it) who will BREAK THE LEGS OF HIS SHEEP, to prevent them from gg astray. but yet, he will be there TO CARRY THEM home ;D sweet huh, this guy. yeh, to put it simply. i love him to bits! ♥ *whoo face.*
this is JonWong / LumpyBear ♥ && im here to appreciate him!
thankyou for always always being there in the past year, o8 (: i thank God for the cambodia trip, or i doubt we'll be as close as now.
not that we're verh close, but i guess we've "closen" quite abit! yay. i love you && keep that passion man! you never know how much your one encouragement / prayer impacts a person (:
teehee, i got tagged this quiz by primary sku mate felicia like bout 2o days ago, i have decided not to be lazy, so i shall attempt to do it! :D
*calls.* THIS IS IT, THIS IS IT! "According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don't know about you."
ONE. i have completely no idea how to do this. im a noobie first timer, && i can so imagine daryl doing the "DANGG, OWN!" thing now luh! *giggles.* :D
TWO. im secretly wishing i am currently like five years old or someth, so this would be a much easier challenge to complete! :D
THREE. i have a thing for smelling people, but usually those who smell nice (:
FOUR. i recognize people by their smell! once i was out w my churchies & heading back to church, it was complete darkness & i was scared, but i smelled joel & exclaimed that i smelt him, the next moment, natty & jo jumped out to scare us! TSK ):
FIVE. theres someth about me & guys who wear specs 8)
SIX. ive watched four muvees in the past week or so. twilight, ip man, bolt & bedtime stories! :D
SEVEN. ive cried a bucket (at least a small one!) of tears during this christmas season! SOBS! ):
EIGHT. my christmas prezzies are mostly either pink, or their wrappers are pink! :D
NINE. when im in sku, i have huge tendencies to miss people! ):
TEN. im currently listening to "Your Call" on my ipod ):
ELEVEN. i am indeed waiting for someones call. what the dots ):
TWELVE. i want a red / white bikini (:
THIRTEEN. i am a sucker for stuffed toys. esp those cutesy ones. & yes, i know im seventeen alr :D
FOURTEEN. is a day of the month i used to celebrate! :D
FIFTEEN. i think YanMama is like my daddie! :D too bad my dumb post got jammed the other day, or he would have seen this! oohwells, anws i love YanMama!
SIXTEEN. i dread the start of sku, but yet at the same time, im super excited to get stuck in the same routine life! :D
SEVENTEEN. is my favourite number! :D the level i stay on, my birthday, && my current age! whoo.
I'D LIKE TO APPRECIATE JEREMIAH LEE WEN YAO FOR BEING MY MOMO PARTNER IN CRIME ALL THESE YEARS :D see, youre appreciated. HAPPY? now, wheres mine! teehee.
BIRD-IE, JOH-IE,RAE-IE this is the only shot of us, for now. so lauyima my beloved darling, please upload the rest of the photos!
my retarded twin && her retarded bf! :D OH, ley. if youre reading this, im keeping my promise aye! I BATHED W LESLEY SOO HUI MIN. in camp, && we took super long in the bath, cos we super shy. && it was so retarded, cos we were supposed to save time cos long queue, but in the end i think we took even longer. anws its really cute meeting her, cos shes so like me, apart from the bimbo-ness. shes way more bimbo, hor hor hor? ahahs, okay luh, i love you & your retardedness! ♥
EVERYONE SAY HI TO XUBEARBEAR! :D ahahs, my childhood friend && also my batchie. hes dam cute can, cos that day we were at roches place. && i was momo for some gay reason, then he came & said verh loud, "AYEEEE WHAT YOU DOING UHHHH." so i sniffed & ignored him. && when he found out i was crying, he kept "OHMY"-ing, super cute can. then he said the dumb thing guys always say, "i duno how console girls one, donte cry ley." ahahs, guys are forever guys man. but he "OHMY"ed agn, & left. then when he walked back, he stuffed a whole wad of toilet paper into my hand / face (cos my face was burried inmy hands.) ahahs, he dam cute luh, thankyou XuBearBear! :D i thank God for my batchie man! whoo.
this photo came first,
then this :D know why? cos im the midst of attempting to fit the christmas hat on my head, birdie dear pulled off the hat from the wall, so, in the end, its *TADA!* on my head! the top / first one, is what YanMama calls my photo face. "THE WHOO FACE" :D
yeh, i love HoneyBun. thou the past few days have just been ghey ):
hellos earthlings, i am still alive. He is good & Genesis is such a great love story! ive watched Twilight, Ip Man && Bolt in the past five days! whoo, i think thats the mostestive ever watched! im talking weird, cos ive been trying to write Christmas cards, but failing quite badly. the girls are coming over later, & we're gg caroling later later. ytd was one of the mostest most retarded days of 2oo8, && i have yet to figure out what happened. Cambodia has taken away many much of my whiney-ness, thank Him for His Love Endures Forever. teehee, this is so OOP.
KAY I LOVE YOU. BUHBYES` HUG FOR SEVEN MINUTES KAY!
Right HERE, Right NOW ♥ the song of the moment, makes me momo anytime, anyday.
Can you imagine What would happen If we could have any dream Id wish this moment Was ours to own it And that it would never leave Then I would thank that star That made our wish come true (come true) oh yeah Cause he knows that where you are Is where I should be too
Right here, right now I’m looking at you and my heart loves the view Cause you mean everything
Right here, I’ll promise you somehow That tomorrow can wait for some other day to be (to be) But right now there’s you and me
EVERYONE SAY HI TO "HI HONEY!' he looks like my CustardLove ♥ right! teehee. he dam noisy, donte let me sleep. when i fell asleep, he woke me up agn. cos reach alr! ):
(this is last nights post) i just chiong-ed finish Corner W Love! ♥ supa cute luh! esp when they bicker, watch tomorrows episode! xiaozhu : 脚抖抖, 脚抖抖! xD && todays one, when he was like "难道你就不怕我伤心吗?" goodness, my heart dissolved & 流到底上去了! ahahs, i watched Little Nonya too! LIL' JAP IS THE FIGGIN CUTEST THNG EVERRR MAN! tears would just well up in my eyes when i see him on screen!
he is so friggin sexay, someone just shoot him please. & i dreamt of him luhhhhh, goodness! man, i should go do my taggie alr, *chants to self.* no YangYang, no YangYang..
superhang says: are you going there by plane? -RAE ♥; says: yahh! -RAE ♥; says: ahhs -RAE ♥; says: actually no -RAE ♥; says: i superrae -RAE ♥; says: so i flying there superhang says: you going to fly there! superhang says: will you hide in the clouds -RAE ♥; says: hmm -RAE ♥; says: i haven planned yet leyyyy -RAE ♥; says: hmm -RAE ♥; says: what do you suggest superhang says: fly by yishun okay superhang says: i think better not stay too long in the sky. superhang says: so smelly with the pollution superhang says: thats why superhang stopped flying, then now too fat to fly
its sucha small small world man, i just found out that ____'s ex is also _____'s ex && _______'s ex. LIKE WHAT THE DOTS. KARN (means dots in cambo). teehee.
anws the supercambo peeps have been in church alot recently! busy doing last minute preparation, learning cambo lang, rehearsing the skit which was SO SO SO FUNNY! esp the first time round! we were all laughing like mad! we're all so gone by the end of ytd, left church at bout ten, slurring in our speech & saying stuffs which were so dots. everyone was verh tired, but the older guys still sent us home! He has Blessed us w such Great Leaders! :D :D :D :D SUPER MANY THANKYOUS TO THE OLDER ONES WHO ALWAYS SEND US BACK! DANYAN ♥ JOELCHIN ♥ JONWONG ♥ ISAIAHDAS ♥ love you guys! i'll send your kiddos back next time kay! (i will scold das' daughter for wearing too short shorts too! AHAHS!)
TODDLES` ♥ counting down to another three days!
OH WAIT, here is how gone we are! MY DEAR BIRDIE! teehee.
elizabeth; says: oh man, the bag so big, our clothes are going to get lost inside
In this moment synchronized inside, words that paint a legacy of life A different picture will unfold, a healing finds it's way through Sifted times I take another breath, with an ambience of nothing left So heal my heart rain down your love these waters bring me back to life
[Chorus] Father, healer deliver me from broken love Stay hear, closer let me hear your voice of love
There's a healing calling from the wind, there's a healer waiting to begin In timeless places, traced and faceless will I learn to let go Take me to the heights where love controls, far away from home but feels so close This empty heart of mine will fall inside and bring me back to life
[Chorus] Father, healer deliver me from broken love Stay hear, closer let me hear your voice of love
You can hold, you can mend You can heal, you can brake I hold cause something etched this way
[Chorus] Father, healer deliver me from broken love Stay hear, closer let me hear your voice of love Savior, Redeemer bring me to this place of peace Jesus, guardian my broken heart is so in need
&& HERES THE SUGGESTED SKIT THE SONG IS THE SECOND & THIRD VID :D
i donte know if people read my blog, but so what if they donte, ima gna blog anws! :D countdown to cambodia, SINGLE DIGIT ALR! *drama mama.* /faints like YanMama ♥ HAHA, i put in his name here cos i realised i dint include him in the I ♥ ... sorry fat uncle, but youre so mean to me anws! you & your FF!
on a side note, today is tuesday, but but but i dint get to eat my gelare agn! ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): POLKA DOTS. polka dots means many many dots. we were talking bout frequency agn today, cos we were talking bout the camp thingee. ahahs, at the cambo meeting, everyones frequency was like so off luh. as in cos we were all verh different, :D like how lumpy doesnt get the kite face joke, while me & lauyima laughed our ass of upon hearing it! xD still quite funny i would say! lalalaaaa~ HoneyBun add sleep for your exams, i cant help you sleep anymore cos i sleep less than you! :D
- to be a woman after His heart!
- for my dearies to know their Saviour!
- to grow in favour, wisdom & stature with God & men!
- the air i breathe; Sisters.
- the food i eat; Brudders.
- for them to be happyhappyhappy :D
HAA HAA HEE HEE HAA HAA HO!
JereMomoKiddo :D
DanFung ♥♥♥
CarrotCake, IfPigsCanFly,
Cuuuuupidos xD
teehee, we stole his bag & left it under the chinese red paper! (:
siew trying to act sexay, as usual. TSK.
retarded shan kept holding on to my hand during GeePee!
SUPER BIG THANKYOU LIWEN DEARIE! ♥
i know i look pretty hilarious in the second photo!
during YouthCamp!
orangeeeeeeeeeeee` :D
i have real lousy aiming!
whoo, prayers move mountains! :D
daryl the uber big sotong wore the cambo tee the wrong side! :D
<333
the simplicity of life, oh the joy :D
rae-derella: "i wana go to the ball too!" ):
teehee, she verh naughty!
super cold mornings! ):
:D :D :D :D :D
quiet time w the many icky kakas! ):
the love! :D
we're SAME SAME, BUT DIFFERENT! :D
at kiwi restaurant!
history of cambodia! ): (:
hair w lice! ):
hellos YanMama! :D
Smelly &Ugly :DDD
MuscularPig took me w the smelly rubbish! ):
shan is making a funny face! TEEHEE :D
yays, we're normal.
i purposely cut shan off cos she too ugly alr! teehee.
me & siew on the firstest first day of sku! ):
makes us look FAT & SHORT!
this is jo, glamglam coooooow` ;D
she was looking at mummie,
super uber cute right! ;D
aww, sho cutez ;D
I LOVE THEM TO BITS ♥
ive got to start doing my 1o2 maths qns alr! eeks.
this is YanMama!
back from cambodia, at the airport! ;D
cows go mooooooooo.
my dare at timmy / birdies place! ;D
char seow pao forcing herself on me, eww!
yeh, i do ;D
our connection! wheee ♥
our funny dress thingee.
SuperRae ♥ JokerBaby!
this is JonWong / LumpyBear ♥
this is my fav random shot ;D
yay. the four of us! yay yay yay! ;D
w ley! ;D
we're supposed to be bored,
yoyoyo! ;D
look at dar, jo & shas face! ;D
a happy "WHAT LUH!" ;D
WE. ARE. FAMILY. ;D
BIRD-IE, JOH-IE, RAE-IE
my retarded twin && her retarded bf! :D
EVERYONE SAY HI TO XUBEARBEAR! :D
this photo came first,
yeh, i love HoneyBun.
teehee, i bet shan i gna kill me!
EVERYONE SAY HI TO "HI HONEY!'
i saw siew!
